December 20, 2008

I never felt worthy of being alive; never felt good enough for anything or anyone. I was completely hopeless. I suffered from anxiety, panic attacks, and major depression. All of these issues eventually caught up with me and I could no longer work, much less get out of the house. I had tried therapy in the past, but never felt an improvement. I was absolutely desperate for someone to help me. It was then that I met Becky Stidham. After talking about my situation she recommended trying hypnosis. Well naturally I was nervous and wondered if my mind would even let me do it due to my intense anxiety. Nevertheless, I sat down, propped my feet up, and covered up with a blanket. She gave me headphones that played soft music, glasses that had blinking lights to tire my central nervous system, and a device on my hand that monitored my pulse. Then I heard her soothing voice speaking lightly to me and telling me to relax and concentrate on relaxing my muscles starting from head to toe. She then started to speak to my subconscious mind. When the session was over I felt calm and relaxed. I waited one week to see her again and by that time I noticed my thoughts were not so negative and my anxiety went from 10 being the worst to a 5. What got me was that I was making improvements without consciously doing it, it was just happening. It was like my brain got rewired to think and feel more positive and calm. To this day I have not had any panic attacks and my depression doesn't exist. I feel genuinely happy, worthy of life and love. I have a completely different way of thinking and thanks to Becky I now love myself and I accept where and who I am today.  Jennifer